This is a song about struggle. I have a friend with a life threatening illness that i hadn’t talked to in four years. The truth is, I was scared to hear how she was. Throughout her life she has always fallen back on her belief in a Christian God to give her strength. Although my ideologies have always been far from hers, I could never fault her for her faith. After I finally heard she was doing fine I imagined what she must have been through those four years. It makes me feel weak.
You are the first friend that I've had that I thought could die, that I thought might die, that I thought would die. You opened up a map of the stars and let it fly, surrounded my eyes, scolded my sighs and lifted my skies. You've found a god that I'll never know. He listens to you, he goes to your school, and he plays by your rules. He's made an impression on you. I hope it's all true just do what you do... i give him to you.
When your room is white... the glow from the night light can keep you awake. Your friends can spend the night, but you live with a feeling I don't think I could take.
The last four years I didn't know if you had died. I was worried you died, carried out with the tide - I was scared you had died. But what I kept in my mind was not letting go. Near-sighted for sure - a bit too demure - I fell prey to allure.
Gods and devils were not meant for babies - you know how hard it is to hold tight to a ghost... and I know I would hold out for another auspicious lamp post.
When your room's all white... the glow from the night light can keep you awake. Your friends can spend the night, but you live with a feeling I don't think I could take.
released September 20, 2012
William Wienert - upright bass
Andrew Miller - Trumpets, clarinets
Shannon Rose Steele - vocals
Holland Hunter Andrews - vocals
Lane Barrington - Vocals, drums